November's Reckonings
the Queen of Cups asks us to expand our capacities, a playlist, shop discount code, and takeaways for this next lunar cycle
Friends/ subscribers/ community!
I haven’t been able to get my words to meet my heart for my unpaid subscribers this month. That means this paid monthly newsletter is available for all of my subscribers as a way to hold us into this next lunar cycle. These paid offerings are packed with a playlist, a tarot card, and reckonings of what this last lunar cycle culminated to give us that may guide us into the next.
I’ve been thinking at length about the fact that my offerings, the messages that come through me, are meant for a collective audience. I’ve been thinking about how my voice, the language I use, needs to be clear. I don’t believe that my work can exist outside of politics, outside of genocide, as someone that sits in the space of facilitation with spirit.
This, ultimately, will be the culmination of a larger newsletter that is bubbling to the surface, however this month’s reckonings feel so immense that it’s taken an incredible amount of somatic work to continue to be of witness. So thank you for being here; thank you for your patience as I’ve been in one of the most extreme spaces of integration.
I’ve added a discount for this newsletter so that we may stay more intimately connected for next year. I feel the importance of continuing to create this container of consent, of complexity, and of protection. It allows me to to show up more resourced in practice. Please consider this option as it’s life-affirming for me, and for some of you too, I imagine.
Onto this month’s newsletter.
The card I’ve pulled for us with this next lunation is the Queen of Cups.
The queen sits on her throne, holding her chalice, as if to honor the journey at which it’s taken her to achieve some sort of emotional maturation. She mothers the deep pain as if it were her kin. She shows up with compassion towards the anger that guides action. She shows up and asks:
How might I use my body, this vessel, as a means of continuing to witness?
How might I show up and see?
How might I strengthen my own sight outside of that which is given to me with goggles?
How might I not turn away from what is unjust?
How might I leverage my gifts when the world is in need?
How might I use pain as an indicator to expand my capacity for more?
So much of my reckoning this month has been allowing myself to witness — allowing myself to see how horrific things really are. I’ve been in a space of noticing how my body wants to harden, how my mind tries to shut down and continue into a space of normalcy. How my thoughts try to convince me that *we’ve been here before and nothing changed.*
The Queen of Cups tells me that there is incredible strength in hope. There is incredible strength in witnessing such large quantities of death — the death of children and mothers and stories and ancestral lineages.1 We are witnessing the death of an entire people, of the landscape of a fertile space of this earthen body, for political gain. As a way to set an example. As a way to instill fear-mongering. As a way to vilify POC. As a way to justify genocide.
I don’t think any of us should harden. I also understand that being of witness takes an incredible amount of our capacity.2 I understand that seeing is the first step. It allows us to show up with more clarity; it allows us to show up with our anger; it allows us to show up with heavy emotion so that we may better feel into what is making us hurt so bad. It allows us to feel all of the ways we’ve been lied to.
The Queen of Cups offers us recognition. We are able to better recognize the spaces in our bodies that hold pain that we’ve diminished. We are able to better recognize the deep unsettled nature of what we’ve grown complacent around. As we sink into these spaces, how might we build sturdier foundations with ourselves built on trust?
With this next lunar cycle, how might we begin to open ourselves to being of deeper witness?
I just updated my website with beautiful photographs from my friend Emily Schultz. Please go check it out and purchase a gift for yourself or your loved ones this season as it directly support me and my craft. My discount code is “slowdown” for 20% off. Outside of the online shop, I’ll be with my friends Starr and Leili at their studio in Atlanta on December 9th for tarot and in-person offerings. It will be really sweet so please come see us if you’re around.
I have online tarot readings on Fridays if you’re needing deeper affirmation and these are sliding-scale as it feels important to offer up one of my gifts for service right now.
As always, thank you for being here. I hope this next cycle treats you with care.
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