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A Lover’s year worth of lessons condensed into a few words— a season of life I feel called to share.
I’ve been sitting in and moving through repair.
It reminds me that it’s so much easier to love someone from a distance.
It means that if I get to love you from a distance then I get to love me from a distance.
If I’m loving you from a distance then I’m loving me from a distance.
If I’m loving you from a distance then I’m loving me from a distance.
It’s hard to love someone up close.
It’s hard to love me up close.
I have a way of exceptionalizing myself from everyone around me.
I have a way of telling myself they should know.
But how would they know if I haven’t talked to them?
I am reminded to root back into love even if it’s seemingly the hardest space to tap into. It’s easier to completely uproot something (someone) from my life instead of taking the time to have the tough conversation. It’s easier to cast judgment on what I assume is happening instead of asking what is happening.
As I take off the many layers of self-preservation, I am more openly seen by those that mean the most to me. If I want people to see me as the messy human that I am, then I must also be willing to see those around me as the messy humans that they are too.
I crave a soft place to land amongst those who understand my imperfectness as beautiful parts of who I am.
I can only imagine that perhaps you do too if you are here reading this.
I want to love you fully.
I want to love me fully.
It means that love is an active choice I make every day.
We get to choose love as the messy container that it is.
I am beginning to love me fully.
I am beginning to love you fully.
Is there something that judgment of another is showing me about myself?
Is there a conversation that may diminish the space of resentment towards another?
How may I use my words to better clarify a boundary?
Can I treat myself with more kindness so that I may bring that kindness into relationship with other people?
Is there a space of grief in my body that I can send more love?
How might we root further into love today?
🤎 I’ll be out on Wylie (in Cabbagetown) painting for Forward warrior this weekend 9/17-18 with Alice! I’m repainting the piece I made from 2019. We will both most likely be wearing sensory headphones for periods of time so as not to be overstimulated with the crowd. Please feel free to take photos/videos and tag us! Please do not yell at us if we are hard at work. It can be very overwhelming this way for my neurodivergent brain. I almost said no to this and realized it was a space for me to share more about my practice. If you want to drop off water and snacks that would be amazing. We are so excited to be out there.
🤎 I will be at my friend Ashley’s Press Shop on September 29th! This is a Thursday evening where I will be showing some amazing new work. I’ve known Ashley for several years now, and I’m so excited and honored to be a part of their space. We will have yummy wine and NA bevies and just hang out. I would absolutely love to see you there. I’ll have brand new sweatshirts and riso prints and quilts!!!
🤎 You may continue to find me with tarot sessions being offered online. This honors my capacity with Bilbo and allows me to meet with you wherever you may be located. This offering is sliding scale. Please reach out if you’d like to explore this with me and have any questions! I shared a monthly tarot for September and will continue to do so.
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Sincerely,