Morning sweet subscribers. Popping in after a wild few weeks with a tarot card, a playlist, and a few updates. I appreciate y’all’s patience with this eclipse and shit.
The meat of the matter is this — we’ve been navigating eclipse season, amongst the astrological new year, mercury currently stationing retrograde, and the massive shift of Pluto out of Capricorn and into Aquarius. I can’t accurately sum up the impact each aspect has had on my own ecosystems with enough clarity yet, but it’s been significant enough to alter some major patterns in my life. I offer this:
What has disrupted your current ecosystems
*Let us notice them now. Write them down. Begin to shift your gaze towards the puzzle pieces of what keeps showing up (or doesn’t).
For this current lunation, I ask us to sit with the three of swords. It’s a card of heartbreak, of grief, of feeling every sensation of whatever is asking to be felt. This card often makes people uncomfortable when pulled, as it’s seen in the Rider-Waite Smith deck with three swords piercing a heart. The clouds around the heart are heavy with sheets of rain. It conveys a disruption, a pause, a pain, a shattering.
There’s something really penetrating about this card, one that asks us to notice what we’re holding onto so that we may feel it. We cannot intellectualize our way out of this one. We cannot say, “hey I feel sad about this.” We have to, we get to, actually feel sad.
Do we even know how to do that?
Something I’m noticing for myself and the collective is this beautiful and well-developed ability to bypass anything that makes us feel uncomfortable. We’ve maintained this acute skill to remain silent and deem ourselves separate of something over “there” — like the ongoing genocide in Palestine or the housing crisis or the fact that no one is coming to save us — through privilege, class, colonialism, fill-in-the-blank. We’ve been cultured to limit ourselves from the sensation of FEELING OUR WAY THROUGH THIS ONE PRECIOUS LIFE.
This card is messy for a reason babes! The three of swords reminds us that feelings are raw and loud and spill out of us like a faucet. This card requires tending — a tending to the thing(s) that caused us deep hurt. I offer that through the storm, through the bullshit, brings clarity and comfort and a moment of “aha!”
We feel feel feel so that we may heal heal heal our sweet little hearts. I absolutely never in a million years thought I would like myself this much, let alone love myself this much. Not because of what I look like or who I’m with or how much money I do or don’t have. It’s genuinely because I look at myself now and see myself becoming the person I always dreamed of as a kid. I never thought I could have this life. I didn’t know I could actually become this version of myself.
That, that alone, is really fuckin cool.
So my angels, for all of you, all of us, that feel everything to the Nth degree — you’re doing it RIGHT and WELL and PERFECTLY PERFECT. I’m so incredibly stoked for you on this journey that is life.
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FEEL IT ALL!